It is incredibly hard for me to write this post. Nikki's condition is deteriorating hourly now. She is having difficulty moving, eating, drinking and is no longer lucid. I spent most of today with her and feel like the time that passed from this morning until now was a week long.

We said goodbye to our precious friends Sam and Robs as they flew home to their families this evening. Their time here was so refreshing, deep and memorable - thank you so much guys, that time meant more than I can say in words. (A memory I will never forget was bouncing together on the bed to "Dancing Queen" at Nix's request on Friday afternoon. It was the highlight of her day. She said that she always thought of us when she watched that part of the movie and it made her laugh so we re-enacted it for her).

Huge thanks to Ainslie, Chan, Steven and Tania and Mark who were such a support to us today. And my darling husband - I am so grateful for him, he is such a rock in my life. Please continue to uphold us in prayer tomorrow, as things are not getting any easier. Tania has the children tonight but they are staying home from school tomorrow and will spend time with their mom and dad tomorrow morning. I know it will not be easy for them to see her this way and they will have plenty of questions. Please hold Adrian up in prayer - my heart is breaking anyway, but when I look at him, I just feel like it is being ripped apart. My precious Sydney turns 5 on Thursday. She has been looking forward to her special day for months and has been counting down the days on the calendar. It's really difficult to think of a birthday when you're facing all this. I will have to do some explaining to my children tomorrow too and will take them to see Nix.

I was encouraged by this scripture sent to me today: “When my spirit grows faint within me, it is you who knows my way.” (Psalm 142:3)